“秋之旅” II

星星之火

2012-01-06T23:01:00.004+08:00

现在的我，身心已疲惫不堪。。。但怎么却还在键盘上飞舞着？！

从中午4点左右开始吧，我似乎已经开始虚脱的躺在公司的沙发上。。。头昏眩得厉害，全身骨头好像快散了，很酸。很痛！我希望那只是因为姨妈来访后的后遗症，千万别影响接下来的我！！

最近，我真的觉得自己内心有一团火，开始在燃烧起来。。。时而慢，时而猛的在燃烧着……我想说，我是个容易被激励的人，但却不是个会采取行动的人！最近，我每天都听着同样的卡带，越听，就越深入。。。越听，就觉得自己很懊悔。。。越听，就越想开始马上行动，马上改掉坏习惯！我到底，该如何在短时间内，让自己突飞猛进？！！！

我一定要跳出去，跳出现状，跳去属于自己的舞台，自己的领域！！我一定要，真的真的一定要，一定要成功！！

天下无难事，只怕有心人

2011-10-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

隔了不知道多久的日子，我总是一而再，再而三的告诉自己一定要继续自己的小小部落格天空。不久前，我花了很大的的努力，把自己以前辛苦经营的部落格“秋之旅”给找回来。。。至于详细的情形，我也不必在这儿张篇大论了。。。总之就是，“天下无难事，只怕有心人”！！就这样，我找回了之前那些非常珍贵的回忆～～

阅读了几篇自己的之前的结晶，恍然大悟的发现现在的自己退步了好多好多。当时的自己，多么的热情投入于自己所喜好的事情上，大喇喇的个性天不怕地不怕，勇于尝试新鲜的事物，生活快乐的像老鼠。当然，看着自己之前的部落格，也觉得自己的文笔还蛮有特色的。。。以前很容易就会想到很多馊主意，特别的词句也很容易就套上来用。。。现在嘛，总是觉得自己的头脑不灵光，连说话都很难说得好。

就这个星期开始吧，我设定了短暂的目标——就是每天都写部落格来记载着自己的事。我也希望，我能慢慢地把自己的想法，没有隐藏的裸露在自己的小小空间。这里将会是很棒的管道来让人抒发自己情绪。。。自从毕业以后，我真的越来越不知道该怎么透露自己的想法。。。似乎开始学会了掩饰，开始把很多想法往喉咙里吞……久而久之，我变得不再像我自己，原本的活力，原本的大喇喇，原本的天不怕地不怕，原本的热情，及等等等等都慢慢地被磨灭。

答应了自己，要重拾自己的兴趣，慢慢的收集回自己的观点与想法。每个人都有自己的强处，我也一样。。。与其什么都不做，让自己慢慢陷入泥沼之中，不如就从现在开始，为自己，好好的努力。真的不想让自己变成一个没有思想的动物，真的真的一定要改变。

生活有了很大的改变，从以前到现在……我想，我真的很容易被现阶段的自己给打败。责任变大了，生活圈子变小了，烦恼也跟着时代的蜕变而慢慢的变多了。。。勇敢一点陈建秋，要知道：“天下无难事，只怕有心人”呐！！加油！！

28周 - Mummy缺少Hb

2011-03-24T13:16:00.001+08:00

所谓的Hb，当然不是Happy Birthday那么简单

那是血液的浓度吧，如果我没猜错的话

话说，pika的血浓度从原本的11.8直落到现在的9.8

正常能给宝宝足够的血应该最少都要有Hb 11 gm%

前两个月，护士就给了我很多warning，毕竟当时我的血已降到11

结果呢，在我那粉红小手册就这么记录着11.8—>11.4—>11—>10.8—>10.4—>9.8

上个月，已经为10.4的result给吓了一跳

我努力了好久，试了很多疗方，维他命也尽量准时吃……

就连最不想吃的，却又是最有效的猪肝都试了，还是不行

去了私人的妇产科，也询问那里的医生

他说，只要没有少过10就都没问题

我让医生给我开了补血的药，也努力的吃了

原本信心满满的我，今天验血后，却又被这样的结果给吓了一跳！！

无奈啊……无奈！！

听说贫血的妇女在产后特别容易得产后忧郁症，不会是真的吧？！

我要努力的补血，一定一定……

不然，怎会有个健康漂亮的宝宝嗫？！

加油！！

第26周

2011-03-09T18:16:00.001+08:00

怀孕好像很久了，但又觉得好像是一眨眼的事

宝宝在我的肚子里，来到了第26周（六个月半），一切都很正常

上星期去做了产检，宝宝体重大概700g

而我呢，从怀孕直到现在增加了6KG，算到来，还是很有节制的

医生也再一次的100%确定，小宝宝的性别

自怀孕第16周开始，宝宝就有了胎动

只能说，胎动次数变得越来越频密，也越来越“有力”！

你甚至能很明显的看到你自己的肚皮因为他，而跳起了肚皮舞。。。

哈哈，宝宝似乎很活跃，且很调皮！

就这样，我开始有了临睡前观赏自己的肚肚的习惯

当然，有时也会跟他的爸爸-豪哥-一起分享这特别画面

我们都在期待，期待着宝宝来临的那一刻！！

最近，都频频传来亲朋戚友怀孕生孩子的喜讯……

就上个月，豪哥的堂妹就生了个健康的男宝宝

宝宝皮肤漂亮得不得了，才新生儿，就已经会跟着生音把头给转来转去，精得不得了！！

前几天，也传来了朋友生了，而且还生了个巨婴

宝宝体重4.2KG，真的不知道该怎么生。。。

想到这，我就怕怕的

我一定一定要多控制饮食，最好别让宝宝长得太大

距离6月17号还有三个月左右的时间

以六个月的身孕来说，我的肚子虽然还不大，但却已经开始慢慢的长大

很担心在最后的几个月肚子不受控制的大上来

毕竟，现在连弯个腰穿裤子都有点被肚子卡到的感觉

Aloha…..不管怎样，我还是希望宝宝健康出世最重要！！

胎动video，那就等下一个blog再post吧~~~！！

尽请期待

十周年---快乐！！

2011-01-14T23:04:00.001+08:00

最近，又开始了在外跑动的生活……Outstation，对我来说，真的比较有挑战性！！虽然累是累了点，但是，心里至少不会空荡荡的。。。反而还觉得时间过得特别快！！

今天，一月十四号。。。是一个对我来说很特别的日子，但是，婚后快两年的这一天，好像变得很没感觉，很没味道！！十年前的今天，我开始了真正的“第一段”恋情……当时羞涩的两个人，傻傻的相约去了一个很远的地方……傻傻的静静地，不言一语的乘坐了1个小时半的巴士去到目的地！！傻傻的到处走走逛逛，也在回家的时候，傻傻的牵了手……然后又傻傻的乘坐了很久的巴士回到了家。。。那一天，被我誉为，我跟豪哥的拍拖周年纪念！！哈哈。。。那种牵了小手后不舍得放开的青涩恋爱，只有在那个时候才找得到吧？！

恋情开花，到结果……对于不同的恋情，大家都有着不同的开花与结果的年龄~~~~有的人快，有的人慢！！我跟豪哥很庆幸的，在拍拖后的八年开了花，在拍拖后的10年也即将结果！！现在【开始】大腹便便的我，满怀期待的，等待着那一天的来临……每一次，一个人在开车时，就会跟肚子里的宝宝说话，也总是在努力地想，到底给宝宝去什么名才好？！自从上星期开始，宝宝每天都在我肚子里调皮的嬉闹着……有时候宝宝的动作真的很大，让我觉得好有趣却又带点夸张！！宝宝似乎真的很好动。。。就跟他爸爸妈妈一样，爱玩，又爱闹！！哈。。。

希望一切平安，顺利！！

十年后的一月十四号，我依然会为“它”画下美丽的句点。。。

祝豪哥，拍拖十周年快乐！！爱你。。。

认真；欢喜；坚持

2011-01-14T22:28:00.001+08:00

续某次的佛学生活营，我开始意识到了什么。。。也因为那一次的机缘巧合，我开始了自己的广论课程。每次上课所用的广论（课本），是一颗颗一粒粒的生字拼凑而来的，而且还是文言文。。。而那一本所谓的广论，就跟我们普通的字典一样厚！！说真的，在还没真正进入状况之前，心里就开始怕怕咯………心想，我可能“读”它吗？！有点不可思议的说。。。

我不知道上了这广论对我能有什么改变，但是，至少我很相信“它”！！也因为如此，每每回到家，听到妈妈不停地抱怨声……我总是默默地听，然后，再慢慢的告诉她一些我在广论课所学到的东西！！虽然她每次在听我说完后都不再有什么抱怨声，但，这情形却依然不断地上演着……妈妈还是一样，只要我回家，她必定抱怨声不断。。。但是，我相信，总有一天，我可以感化她那么一点点。。。就那么一点点也好吧？！

说到我家的二宝，也就是我二哥！！在我们眼里，他就是长不大的大宝，成天对着电脑玩着不知名的游戏。。。疯狂的沉迷，也因为如此，脾气变得古怪，鲜少与家人交流！！因为如此，26岁的他，突然被我们一家人给逼去技术学院读书。。。停了8年没碰过书的他，从一开始去学校报到直到现在，我们依然放心不下他。。。而且，他对我们给他的决定，抱有许多的埋怨！！我家的二宝，每次回到家……依然关在房间，沉迷于电脑游戏中！！情况似乎没什么改变。。。不久前，我开着车接他回家，在车上，也终于有机会跟他聊天。。。一开始聊他的朋友，接下来聊他的学校，然后，就聊到了我们的父母……也就这样，慢慢的我告诉他我在广论课所学到的一些东西！！他听完后，感觉似乎不错……没有任何的排斥，反而觉得有很有趣也很有道理！！到了家，告诉了他“观功念恩”所能够对人对己带来的乐趣，也同时，在饭桌上，把这意识带给家里的妈妈知道！！

或许这就是我小小的变化。。。总觉得自己开始想把好的东西带给身边的人！！那是一种快乐，一种不一样的快乐……慢慢地在你骨子里延伸，并想把这一切，都带给身边的人，让他们知道，让他们也快乐！！

2011的第一篇

2011-01-05T15:05:00.001+08:00

最近，很容易因为一些事情而搞到自己不开心，郁闷，烦躁……我不敢说是因为怀孕，而让我变成这样。但，我却相信，因为怀孕，让我生活上有了转变——那转变，有好，也有坏！！在工作上，我尽量减少outstation，或许也因为如此，工作量突然大大减少！也因为这样，而搞到自己的心惶惶。。。有种力不从心的感觉！当大家都在为公司奋斗努力时，我却总是交不出成绩。。。2010年的成绩单，我自认我无言以对！！在office，我每天都在说服自己，打多点的cold call……当然，我并没有做到……甚至有时会以逃避去面对！！

曾静听某人说，她说她很记得师父说的一句话：只有面对你的敌人，你才不会被它在背后给搞得偏题鳞伤。你知道吗，我们人类，遇到问题，总是爱逃避，但却又因为那问题，而把自己陷入苦海……这句话让我觉得很有道理，我想，我们得勇敢的面对/正视着我们的敌人与问题，才能脱离困境！！还有一点就是，通常你的敌人，就是你自己……只要你踏出去，就能跳出瓶颈！！我也很肯定，那就是我接下来要去真正要面对的……

陈建秋，加油吧！！！

话说回来，肚子开始隆起，很多衣服都不再能都穿出去见人……真是懊恼！！女人啊女人，为什么就那么难找衣服？！！看到那却贵得要命却又丑丑的孕妇装，真是提不起劲买下手！！我发誓，我产后一定要努力的瘦下来，不然，漂亮衣服真的没我的份……但是，怀孕的我，还是希望努力的找些漂亮的孕妇装给自己，谁能给我意见？！哎哟，真懊恼。。。

两天前，肚子开始传来不一样的呼唤！！并不是肚子饿，且不是想大便之类的呼唤……那种呼唤，很是温柔，很轻的，很含蓄的……他似呼在我肚皮内跳动着！！宝宝来到第十六周，开始有了所谓的“胎动”。。。一开始我不太确定，但当他接二连三的触动，让我肯定的感受到，宝宝开始在跟妈妈打招呼了！！哈哈，听同事说，宝宝那么快就会动了，证明宝宝很Active……

昨夜，去做了产检……本以为可以知道宝宝的性别，哪知道，宝宝非常之含蓄，不让我们看！！同事说，那么含蓄，一定是女儿……哈。。。大家，欲知详情，请等下回揭晓！！宝宝的耳朵，手脚都成形了，心跳也跳得很正常，头型，脊椎都没问题……真是个健康的宝宝！！等宝宝大多一些些，我就跟宝宝照个4D的照片……一定很棒！！^^

Pika之P3时代

2010-12-14T10:34:00.001+08:00

好久没来博客了，因为本人正为来临的考试而慌，根本就没时间，没经历来博客走荡走荡。多两天，就是我的死期……说真的，我真的一点把握也没有。 到底是谁跟我说P3能够self-study的啊？

Haizz，都是cream惹得祸（开玩笑）。总之，算来算去还是自己的问题，谁叫我天生就没那种资历，比较笨，比较不开窍……但是现在怎么怨都没用了，只有全力以赴才是重要。就多两天，我就能解脱了……哈，说解脱似乎太看得起自己了。我想，我应该跟P3说下次“再见”！下次“再见”！！

续上次的栽芒果记，被芒果树的汁喷了一身后，身上起了很多斑点！也在不久的几天后，斑点开始像魔鬼般的折磨我，让我饱受痕痒的煎熬……就连半夜都睡不着，因为实在是太癢了！感谢现在，红肿慢慢褪去，痕痒也减少了，但是唯一让我失望的是那些斑点都变成了疤痕！！很难看，很难看……虽然我已婚，但爱美的天性是很难改的。白嫩嫩的手跟脚，就这样被芒果汁给破坏了，真他妈的*&%##!##$**&！！下次得吃多点芒果报仇……

上星期一，我去看了妇产科……小宝宝明显的长大了，12个星期的他，现在已经是5.88cm大的小家伙。在噪音波的镜头下，小宝宝已经成形了，而且很努力地摆动身体给爸爸妈妈看！！我看到了他的头，身体，手，脚，还有那小小的心脏，都在很努力的跳跃着……真的太神奇了。。。但医生问，你的体重怎么都没起落？！哈，或许现在还没有设么起落，但我相信，下来的几个月，应该会有很大的起伏吧？！看着宝宝的照片，我开心得不得了……相信在下一次的检验，就会知道宝宝的性别了！！

回到家，迫不及待地拿着手上的照片给豪爸豪妈看……他们也似乎乐在其中！！大家应该也很想看看小宝宝的照片吧？或许等到那天，我才慢慢的准备给大家欣赏……

现在的我，还是乖乖的回去位子上，为我的考试做最后的冲刺！！我一定要加油加油，再加油！努力努力，再努力！！

不明物体的出现

2010-11-30T16:35:00.002+08:00

星期六旁晚从Batu Pahat回到家后，就累得不得了

晚上九点半就直倒在床上呼呼大睡

还告诉豪哥说：“我明天一定要睡到自然醒”！！

结果隔天一早，还没到九点，我就很自然地苏醒了。。。

没辙，既然再也睡不下去，那就乖乖的做些简单的家务

早上十一点，豪哥终于起身了，我们就跟前一晚说好的，去吃好吃的Asam Laksa！！

虽然地点看起来一点都不讨好

但是，他的Laksa还真是不赖！！

豪哥尝试吃了那里的炒饭，味道也是顶呱呱 ^^

很可惜的是，我没办法尝到爱吃的西蛤(Xi-Ham)

因为怀孕不能吃生冷的食物

而我呢，我却又超爱吃3-4分熟的西蛤！！

没办法，为了小BB，只好忍……

这就是豪哥叫得炒饭，很有锅气的一盘饭

可能也因为附近的人多数是靠捕鱼为生，所以里面的小虾也是口感一流，很新鲜

接下来，就我的爱吃的Asam Laksa啦。。。

在那里吃东西，绝对会把所有的东西都塞在嘴里，一滴汤汁都不剩

因为真的好吃，所以，总是对“它”念念不忘

之后，我跟豪哥就去了阿嫲家陪陪她老人家

我最爱阿嫲家的芒果了，因为又香又爽口又好吃

贪念的一直游说豪哥，让他帮我摘芒果

结果，芒果就这样一粒一粒的摆在我眼前

我更是迫不及待的拿了纸袋就开始丰收的起来

结果，因为拔了芒果头上的树枝，树枝里面的胶汁马上就喷了我一身

豪哥知道后就骂到：都叫你小心它的汁了，还那么不小心，快点去洗干净

我就这样，不削的进去洗洗。。。因为不知道这一点点的“汁”有什么厉害，所以就随随便便的洗洗就又出去了

不管怎样，看到一包芒果，我就感到兴奋

星期天，就这样一下子就过了

星期一的早上，准备好去工作

突然发现手的部分起了两颗小水泡

担心的把还在赖床的豪哥吵醒，让他看看

他却说：是被蚊子叮的啦，没问题。。。

我也就这样，不以为然的不多以理会

也因为穿着长袖的关系，根本没去注意到

结果，放工后，在去上Revision课的路上，无意掀开了衣袖

发现到自己的手起了很多斑点。。。

害怕的心情马上涌出来

以为自己是不是得了什么病？！

我的天啊……

心想，难道昨天吃的Asam Laksa有问题？！

还是最近吃了一些平时没吃的东西，引起过敏？？

说真的，没什么心情听课

回到家，还发现连脚都有相同的问题

因为很懊恼，默默地偷偷哭泣，还跟豪哥发脾气

他看到了我手上的斑点，一直不断地安慰我

说会陪我去看医生，说什么有他在一定没问题……

但是，谁理他啊？！！！

豪哥还一直问我最近吃了什么？

问我是不是住在Batu Pahat的酒店不干净？

很多很多的问题都在他的脑袋不停旋转……

稍等片刻后，他很确认的对我说，他知道什么问题了

我看着他说道：你给我安静！！

他说：一定是你那天给芒果汁喷到的关系……

他继续说：你看，只有这只手跟着只脚有问题，其他地方都没有？！那天你不是只被喷到这部分吗？

我这才恍然大悟的，把眼泪擦干

心想：原来如此，一定是这样！！

哈哈，pika就是pika……容易悲观，却又容易最初梦醒

当答案找到后，就这样，结束一天紧张的生活

睡觉！！

在Batu Pahat的第二天

2010-11-24T20:58:00.002+08:00

今天一起身，就快手快脚的做好准备

心想，难得人在Batu，那就应该回去以前住的地方

寻找以前爱吃的猪肉粥吧！！

我在那附近绕了几圈，说真的，那一带变得好冷清

留下了一排排的老店，却再也寻觅不到曾经的风采

你知道吗，我真的很幸运

大概是相隔有十年的时间了吧

很多老店都已不附在，我甚至不记得准确的地点

就这样绕了几圈，我把车停在一家老店前

因为不再年轻，视线也似乎不太灵光

我看了那间店很久，也犹豫了很久

突然，那一刹那。。。他老板做出了一个招牌动作

就是，他总是爱扶着他的腰，然后一副苦瓜脸的样子

哈哈，我就这样，很确定的，给车子引擎关了，下车去

老板没变，老板娘也没变

但就是不再有活力

叫了一碗粥后，我就找了个位子坐下

以前的咖啡小妹，已经不再青春

以前的咖啡小弟弟，也变得一副uncle脸

那就是“时间”的厉害。。。

岁月，永远都不牢人

真是感叹！！

我呢，我想十年后，他们也根本不记得我了吧。。。

虽然我以前是多么的捧场！！

毕竟，我的改变也是很大很大的！！

哈哈哈。。。

说真的，十年前跟十年后的味道没什么改变

但是，我却发现到我没有像以前那么的喜爱

因为吃完过后，真是极度的口渴。。。

我想，毕竟我不再年轻，消化味精的系统不再那么厉害！！

有一点就跟跟以前一样，我一定会被拿热腾腾的粥给烫到

舌头真的很受苦。。。

但是，还是很满足，毕竟又圆了自己的梦

吃到了以前的“爱粥”！！

今天的Training蛮顺利的。。。

虽然我还是会因为说了整天的课而喉咙痛

但是，算是愉快的一天！！

回到旅店，洗了澡，便去了“以前”Batu Pahat最大的shopping mall。。。

当然，都说了是以前，就知道那里逊色了很多很多！！

逛了一会儿，肚子突然觉得好痛

心里马上涌出担心与不安。。。

却又有点开心，感觉宝宝应该是给我小小暗示，告诉我他正在一天一天的长大，

不管怎样，尽早回去旅店休息，应该是最好的选择！！

不只可让疲惫的自己好好休息，也让小宝宝好好休息

在Batu Pahat的第一夜

2010-11-23T20:07:00.002+08:00

这星期，都必须呆在Batu Pahat教课

连续要照顾两组顾客，身心上跟精神上有一定的疲惫

而且，必须等到星期六上完课后才能回家，听起来都觉得很累似的

肚子里的小宝宝，跟着妈妈跑上跑下的，应该慢慢习惯了吧？！

我很担心肚子里的小宝宝，因为我总是不按时吃医生给的药

所以，担心不能够给小宝宝足够的营养

多几天，就是小宝宝在妈妈肚子里的第十一周

虽然还是很小，但是妈妈好期待小宝宝能快快的长大

我总是幻想，小宝宝在妈妈肚子里游来游去的画面

那一定会是个很幸福的触动

多两个星期，就要去做产检

说真的，我有想延迟去做检验的想法

不知道为什么，其实心里很想看小宝宝

但是，却又担心小宝宝还小，看不到什么东西

所以，一直想等宝宝大一点，然后就可以看小宝宝在肚子里跟我挥舞的画面

那一定棒极了！！

刚刚去了Farmasi买了Cocoa Butter，为的就是担心有以后会有妊辰纹的问题

所以，就开始询问什么产品能够预防或减少妊辰纹的咨询

当然，这Cocoa Butter好不好用还有待关注

不止Cocoa Butter，我其实也托朋友帮我买了另一个产品

价钱方面，比我手上这个还要贵上五倍++。。。

当然，只要能有预防妊辰纹，多少钱都值得

毕竟，女人都是爱漂亮的

我并不希望以后有了妊辰纹才来后悔

所以，现在起就应该勤做保养！！

不只为了自己，我还为了小宝宝将来的健康，订购了很多保健品

总是听人家说，吸取足够营养的小宝宝出生后，不只容易带，也不容易生病

所以，为了宝宝的健康，我想，很多妈妈都很愿意花这些钱给肚子里的小宝宝

给宝宝的话：

宝宝，因为你的存在，爸爸妈妈觉得很快乐

因为你的存在，阿公阿嫲觉得很快乐

因为你的存在，外公外婆觉得很快乐

因为你的存在，老嫲嫲也很快乐

因为，大家都在期待你的到来

因为你，妈妈开始知道，什么是害喜

原本喜欢吃的东西，看了一点胃口也没有

总是想吃酸的食物，因为比较开胃

有时候食物送到面前，吃了几口，就觉得好饱

没一会儿，肚子又饿得不得了。。。

你啊你，让妈妈吃了苦头却又说不出

爸爸总是骂：你为什么吃那么少。。。

妈妈说：我吃不下

爸爸又说：你不吃，BB还要吃，快快快，快吃

爸爸不会怜香惜玉，妈妈就只能多吃点来安慰他

哈哈

长辈说，孕妇不能提重的东西

但是原谅妈妈因为工作的关系，有时没办法分开一点一点的搬

所以总是一口气，提了很多东西

希望，不会因为这样，影响到你

我只要你健康，健康的长大

相信你一定能带给大家希望

因为有你，妈妈好快乐

宝宝，你听到了吗？！

惊喜- Part 4

2010-11-19T22:35:00.001+08:00

接着的几个星期，我的生活开始变得忙入

一连好几个Training要做，一做就是连续几个星期

几个星期下来，加上Outstation，算一算，为了赶上赶下，要休息，真的不容易

或许是自己也因为肚子有个小生命的关系，总是担心这个又担心哪个的

精神，偶尔难免不太能够集中

尤其是怀孕时期，害喜是难免的

但庆幸的是，我在这方面，并没有很严重

而且每当开始工作时，幸运的，我都能够马上进入状况

害喜的频率，也跟着减缓

上星期六晚上，去了宝玉家，陪她度过她最后一个单身夜

因为怀孕了，原本计划当她的姐妹的我，不得不放弃在她出嫁那天当她姐妹

因为这样，那位准新娘既然帮我大肆宣扬关于我怀孕的消息

天呐。。。我为了保守这个秘密，不知受了多少苦

她既然轻轻松松的，就帮我把怀孕的消息宣传出去

真是让我哭笑不得的“好姐妹”！！

那晚，我们这三个小学三姐妹，宝玉，慧敏，还有我。。。开开心心的大谈孩子经！！

很开心的聚会，那是不可多得的一夜啊！！

隔天一早，我去了妇产科做了第二次的检查

挂了号后，等了好久好久，才有机会见到医生的脸

在星期天看产检，真累人。。。

体重，却也比先前的来得少了3kg，或许，是因为最近都没胃口的关系

宝宝两个月了，当然，超英波里的小圆球也明显的长大了

医生说，宝宝只有1cm大，说真的，除了白白的画面，我什么都看不懂

接下来，医生开了宝宝的心跳声给我们听。。。

我的天啊，好有生命力的家伙，宝宝的心跳声，好快好快！！

那是多么的让我感到骄傲的心跳声，好惊讶的生命力，

霎那间，我觉得好开心好开心，好感动好感动。。。

相信，当时，豪哥应该也开心得不得了吧

宝宝的预产期，跟之前的医生检验的一样

就在明年的六月十七日

惊喜–Part 3

2010-11-13T10:51:00.001+08:00

带着忐忑不安的心情，来到了星期一

我终于，鼓起勇气的跟一位要好的同事提起这件事

她开心得不得了，忙着想跟我说好多好多我该注意的事项

因为得出去见顾客，所以，没来得及听完，我就离开公司了

中午，我跟她在某家常去的餐馆会面

她还是一样，迫不及待的跟我说了很多很多

我呢，就告诉她，我遇到那后辈医生的状况

她更是气得，比我还火冒三丈

说到：那儿有医生这样说话的？！换成是我，我一定骂到他狗血淋头！！！

哈哈，因为有那位同事，我安心了不少。。。

向她要了某妇产科的资料，打算一有机会就再去确认一下！！

星期二的傍晚，在妇产科那里挂了号，排队等着见医生

医生人好好，问了我一些问题，然后就帮我scan肚肚。。。

虽然，只看到一粒圆圆小小的东西

但是，是子宫内孕，医生也说没问题

医生还帮我的小宝宝拍照。。。

小小一粒，每每看到那照片，却足以让我开心整天

我通知了我妈妈，豪哥也通知了他母亲

大家，都因为这喜讯而感到兴奋

没想到，续知道好姐妹宝玉怀孕的消息后，自己也为自己添了个喜讯

人生，因为有了“小希望”，而变得灿烂。。。

惊喜–Part 2

2010-11-13T10:30:00.002+08:00

那医生，没头没脑的

就这样，用验孕棒帮我检验，结果，跟我所验出来的一样

他问：你怎么知道你怀孕了？

我不削的说：因为，我也用验孕棒。。。

他才恍然大悟，说到：那你今天，是要确定有没有baby的吧？

他继续说：但是你刚刚小便了，应该很难scan得到。。。没关系，我们试试看！！

然后又继续说了些很难听的话：你是肯定有baby了，但是，我不保证“它”是死的还是活的

听了他那番话，我无言以对

毕竟我对医学，没什么认识

就这样，他开始帮我scan我的肚肚

在开始前，他说：我不是很有经验，因为没帮人家scan过。。。

搞了很久，我也尴尬了很久，他就是照不到

就因为膀胱没尿液，所以真的什么都看不到

。

整理好了后，回到了他的座位

他又在啰里啰唆的说了些难听的话。。。

就算有baby，也是5个星期罢了，也不知道是死的还是活的

也不知道是子宫内孕还是外孕。。。

然后他就画了个子宫给我看，说到

这就是你的子宫，如果是子宫外孕就很危险。。。

因为baby会慢慢长大，被东西压到后就会爆，如果爆了的话，不只小孩没了，你也会失血过多而死！！

当然，还有好多好多难听的话在后头

在此，我还是不说了

。

想想看，我是第一次怀孕

因为他的那些话，让我倍受煎熬

因为遇到这样的医生，把我所有的思绪给打乱

看完医生后，我拨了电话给豪哥

告诉他这样的情况

还在工作的他，忙着劝我别想太多，忙着安慰我

就这样，我会了娘家，也静静的，没跟妈妈提起这件事情

就因为，我被那医生的话所影响

“就算有baby，也是5个星期罢了，也不知道是死的还是活的”

天呐，我真的真的好担心！！

真的真得好不开心

真的真的，希望，小宝宝没事。。。

惊喜 - Part 1

2010-11-12T20:47:00.005+08:00

已经是知道小生命所存在的四个星期后了，

“它”在这段日子里，给了我好多好多的新鲜感

我是多么的期待他，多么的想马上就能与那小生命有亲密接触

好多思绪，好多对小生命的思绪都已慢慢模糊

心里有好多抱歉与愧疚

我多希望，自己能够好好的记载，记载小生命在我怀中的一点一滴

结果，因为之前的部落格户口不能再用

我又懒得再开一个新的户口

竟然这里有现成的户口，那。。。就在这里记录吧！！

还记得开始时，自己还犹豫着该不该用验孕棒测试的情景

因为自己的经期总是姗姗来迟，所以验了好多次，都是"negetive"

很是失望的说。。。

到最后，我等了又等，盼了又盼

才决定拿验孕棒来为自己检验

在厕所呆了许久，不知道是验孕棒的问题还是什么

一开始，只是呈现"negetive"，有点失望

可是，隐隐约约，第二条线慢慢的浮现出来

因为颜色不明显，我回房间后，叫醒还在呼呼大睡的豪哥

给他看了看，告诉他我好像怀孕了，但却不确定

他兴奋的，仔细地研究那验孕棒

说道：怎么看啊？！

我说：两条线代表怀孕，但是第二条线并不明显，所以不确定

他，很高兴很高兴

但却有一丝丝的担心，因为还不确实，所以我们都没跟家里人交代

我就带着忐忑不安的心情，慢慢得等到了周末

那一天，我跟公司女生同事有个聚会

就那么巧，她们心血来潮的谈论着妈妈经

我只是傻笑，细细地听他们的分享

散会后，我终于鼓起勇气，到家里附近的诊所去作检查

结果。。。

让我好是失望！！

大概等了一个小时，没想到遇到的却是代替医生

他让我去尿尿，同样的，用验孕棒来为我检验

。

Pregnant?!

2009-07-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

I have been quite a long time didn't update my blog. Argghh......I should commit more time here, so i can improve my English, and write with a better English in my blog. But sometime, It just can't work, because I just don't know what should i post and what to share!! Erm....maybe....excuse again!!!

After back from Cameron Highland, I start busying with my job. I am enjoying with the busy life now because I can spend my time to learn something new. A challenge for myself......but sometime, i found that i am a bit lazy!! I have quite a high expectation towards myself. For those things i can't doing well, i will feel uncomfortable......even peoples think that i am doing quite well, but me myself, is not that satisfied my performance. I think, sometime, this kind of expectation is reasonable, and i believe it can push me to somewhere i want.

Recently, peoples like to ask me whether i am pregnant!! Sweat = =".......Yeah, agree agree.......As i am getting fatter compare to the time when i was having my wedding dinner!! Haizz...how come!!! I always go for exercise what?! Hmm.......I think, i really eat too much, and gain too much FAT inside my body!! Hmm.....2.5KG......got soooo obvious until people thought that i am pregnant?! Argghh, it make me so down and sad!! Don't care, don't care, i want to keep fit!!!

Pregnant?!!! Boooooo........Impossible to happen unless the "lucky star" falls to me!!

Alright......I will ask my stomach stop growing up and I want a FLAT abdomen!!!

I should control my appetite, trying to eat less and drink more!! Do more exercise like belly dance and yoga......I think it can help!! Hmm......I think, i will try to don't sit after eat......otherwise, all the fat will store in my stomach, make it look bigger!! OMG.......I don't wanna imaging again!!!

What I've plan for this weekend is to go for facial, practice my presentation, so coming Monday i can have a better performance!! Yesterday, because of dating with Mr.Transformer....then doesn't prepare it, the presentation that i had done is really POOR enough!!! Add oil add oil!!!

Add oil??!!

Boooo.......only add oil for my work, but not my body!! I am already FAT enough......now want to cut oil cut oil to make myself SLIM back!!

A new couple

2009-07-12T11:37:00.000+08:00

Time to blog!!

Weekend again.

Yesterday went for a wedding dinner with my dear and we were very excited!! After marriage, this is our first time to attend someone's wedding. We are always proud that we are a perfect couple. You must wonder why i said so..... Well, as i am pretty and he is handsome(issshhh, if you are not agree)...... Both of us had the puppy love since primary school and start in love with each other when we were in secondary school. That's why, we are always proud of ourselve.

For time being, everything will change!! I think, I've been changed a lot as well...... Just like last time, I left him alone here and straight away go KL for my further study. He wait for me for 4 years plus...... He never owe me anything, but, this is what he paid for... even his time, and his contribution in this relationship.

Well, he is the one who always wait for me......buT, i am always the one who destroy his hope. Fortunately, he never give up me and he believe that we are used to be together, and in the end, we are!! I am unreasonable, very straight forward, and i always complain him that he doesn't treat me good. You can see that, a girl like me, is really not adorable at all!! Ahaha... how lucky am I that can get him in my site!!

Alright, by looking at this photo, can't deny that, he is really handsome!!

Both of us are means to be together!!

Trip

2009-06-27T17:28:00.000+08:00

You know, few months ago......i booked a pair of air ticket for myself and HowGe to Bangkok as that time the AirAsia has the promotion. 2 return tickets is only worth RM398.......which is really cheap!!! Without thinking much, i booked it. And I can have my first honeymoon with him in this coming November. That is a 6days 5night Bangkok trip~~~

Unfortunate, i received a mail from AirAsia last month, mentioned that the flight that I've booked is cancelled. What the hell......I am really not happy with it. As that actually will be my first flight in my life!! Walaoei, this really disappointed me, make me feel a bit sad......

I thought, my Bangkok trip will just become a bubble....But, at last.....my uncle-in-law help me to ask for it. So, i still can be able to go for my trip, just, have to depart from Singapore to Bangkok. Well.......this is not my honeymoon anymore, as some of my relatives will go with me at that same time also. ^ ^........aha.......it is more looks like a family trip~~

Besides Bangkok trip, i have booked another trip as well!! Yeah...I will go to Taiwan in next year March~~!!! You can see that, i start achieves my dream one by one......yes, i love to travel around, and what i plan is, visit 2 countries each year~~ Yeah, 2 countries per year, i think this is not too much, right?!

Okay, after the long story about Bangkok and Taiwan......Now, i want to talk about my Cameron highland trip also!! Yeah Yeah, I will have a trip in Cameron Highland tomorrow with all AXP's members!! Weee......my LX3 will become very HOT then!! Ahaha, bcoz i am sure, everyone, including me, sure want to take AS MUCH pictures AS POSSIBLE during this trip!! Wow....so excited man...... Nice photo will be uploaded once i come back!!

Alright, my LX3 is with me now...just i am a newbie for LX3, really don't have much "potential" photo can really post in here. Well, boring blog i have...but, be patient to wait for my photos, ok?! Ahaha.....

Wish you guys have a nice weekend!! Wish me have a nice trip in Cameron Highland with colleagues as well.......wow, i can now smell the Steamboat, BBQ, and my favorate's CORNsssssss!! Yeah, i will sure buy A LOT of cornssss for myself.....No choice, because I LOVE CORNSSS!!! Hek Hek Hek....

Babbled

2009-06-26T17:56:00.000+08:00

I am wonder why i am so happy and exciting, maybe this is the power of LX3!! People, i will get my LX3 soon!! Yes, very soon......really can't wait for it!!! Aha....i watch it everyday, every hours, every minutes as i put this as my wallpaper on my desktop~~~lalalalala~~~~LX3 LX3 LX3!!

Alright, i know...i spent too much in this month!! I paid the ACCA exemption fees which already can kill me in somewhere, i went for shopping, facial, and again i buy a camera......= =" Alright, I promise, i will tight up my burse start from next month, PROMISE!!

In between of PSP, Wii, and camera......i make a dicision to buy the camera. Ironically, i ran out of my budget, but i still want to buy it, you can see that, i am really stubborn for something that i really wanted for!! This is good, or bad?!! Aha.....don't care.....don't care.....!!

I am glad, i am quite a lucky girl.....Peoples around me are nice, willing to share and willing to teach. BuT, i will still work hard, to create the miracles in my life!! People come people go, appreciate everyone beside you is the most important mission for me...... I am still learning, are you?! Feels like learn a lot of recipes about the traditional food's from my mom, but, i alwasy got no enough time to do it...... Hmmmm......excuse again?!!

For time being, all those traditional food will disappear if WE don't want to learn......i just don't hope this will happen in someday!! I wish my future kids can be able to eat those nice and delicious homemade traditional food as well......Yeah, i am willing to do it for them, if i have kids!!

Okay la....a lot to share, but maybe in next blog!! Here i gone.....

Imperfect vs Perfect

2009-06-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

He is not a perfect lover

He is not romantic
He got no time to understand me
He lack of experience to make a gal happy
He don't know anything about sweet talk
He has a very bad temper
He is lazy in somewhere
He can sing really BAD
He can fall asleep easily with snore

He love to watch TV rather than me

He alwasy feels like be my master, order me do this and that
He love to kakacaocao me

But

He is my husband

A man that love me a lot

A man that very hard working
A man that who is very responsible

A man that have a very wide shoulder

A man that always feels like protect me

A man that who is always allow me to bite him

A man that who hav a BIG HAND

A man that try to bring me around even he is LAZY

A man that loves his family very much

A man that loves my family vy much too

That is him, my dear How Ge

I can't deny that he is really not a perfect lover

buT every imperfect, is perfect for me

as...long...as...

He is with me

as long as

we appreciate

we care

and

we love

Random #1

2009-06-18T16:49:00.000+08:00

Yoohooo.....Friday!!! Well, i just went back from Singapore for the CommunicAsia~~ Heard my colleagues said that the CommunicAsia in previous year were more magnificent. But this year looks like nothing much over there......we just walk around, and take some free gift......yeah, FREE GIFT!! I am too shy, didn't get much compare to them~~But i got a very nice pen!! Is enough for me already, since i am easy to please. Hekhekhek~~

Before i went there, i thought i am able to found the product that i wanted to look for~~in fact, i didn't found it!! Really nothing much there........

I plan to own a camera as i am really like to take photo. Recently, i found a very nice camera, which introduce by my fren, called Panasonic Lumix LX-3!! At first, when i don't know much about this camera, i found that it's UGLY!! In fact, this camera carries a lot of nice features, and it make me feels that it's really COOL compare to others~~

Of course, the price is not that cheap, is around RM1680.....><"...... Which is really out of my budget!!! This camera carries DSLR function but with a smaller size, that's why, it make me in love with LX-3!! Yeah, after do some survey and price comparison, i think, i will own it soon~~

Here are some photos taken by some photographers who using LX-3:~

How how how?! Cool right?!

Since i donno much about camera, and i am not a professional photographer, so i think, this camera is JUST NICE to me!! I can pick up my shooting skill after i got my camera!! People, wait for it~~ Nice photos capture by ME is coming soon~~~ Muahahahaha~~~~

Dehhhh......time to stop!! Wish u guys have a nice weekend~~

Sweatin day"

2009-06-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

I start in love with the "bath toning"!! Wow, it really make me sweat like bath......a lot of FAT can be burnt~~ Aha, that's why, i start in love with this exercise besides the Belly dance!! Must keep doing this in every monday after work~~!!

After the exercise, i back home directly......I saw my hubby younger brother was doing something, looks sneaking, but that time i was engaged and i didn't bother him much. After all, somebody is bathing...while waiting, I think of the sneaking face and action from younger brother, again, to prove it, i go and check something in outside!! That is sad, bcoz i found some bloodstain on the ground.

Of course, it make me very angry......

I was blocking him while he come out from the bathroom. He looks scare, ask me lower down my voice and instruct me go inside his room....I know, he don't want to let his father know about it!! Once in his room, i check the condition of injury on his leg...... And i was very angry, i never scold him, but, i can't control myself: "Accident again, alright, don't drive the motobike again from now on"!! He trying to explain something......and, i believe him......buT, i just don't know what will happen after his dad know about it!!

I told my hubby about it during our YumCha time, and, he is more mad than me.....his bad temper, is exactly imparted by his father. That is why, i don't dare to tell his father about it, and I am sure his younger brother will being disaster on it also!! I just want to prevent this, but, actually, i got no idea on it. I just ask my hubby to help him apply the medicine on his leg......try to being soft to his brother, change another way to treat him...mayb, his brother will realize that, we are worry about him instead of keep reproach him!! Keep reproach him only will make him feel like want to run away, he is just a teenager, in rebel age......We should, change our method to teaching him about this lesson.

Well......Things that we are trying to avoid was happened. His father discover something in the early morning, the motobike was broken down. He was very mad, he made a call to mother who has gone for work and keep complaining through the phone. I am awake while i'm preparing to work......I am suffering, but again, i don't know what to do!! When i go out from room, he saw me, and asked me, did i know anything about it...i answered, YES. He is getting more mad, said "why all of you know about it, but no one tell me the truth?!"

I am speechless........
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I am worrying about tonight.......thinking of skip my belly dance class, and back home earlier.

I am thiking of whether want to find him(father) for a lunch, share something with him about my opinion, so that tonight can be pass peacefully~~ But, i still don't know what to do.......arggh........

Realised make me growth

2009-06-12T09:28:00.000+08:00

I was realized something today, luckily, I realized it today!! Nothing is too late, I have only doubt about it for around 9 months, luckily…is not 1 year!! Now…everything seems so clear for me!! Obviously, I’m not happy!! Of course, what I thought for these months has been gone in just a few minutes!! No point for me to smile…...

A lot of things is keep running in my mind, pressure start entangle me!! I just can’t control and calm down myself…… Again, at last……I realized, I am just a NORMAL people in the world!! I am not expressive, I don’t even know how to express my feeling…… For those things that I don’t know much, I always use my own way to look for the answer! And, it works!! During my studies life, I don’t know much…but I always use my own way to seek for the answer without ask for clarification from lecture/tutor!! Most all the time, my judgment is really works……but, when people come and ask me how do I found the answer, but I can’t really answer them, even I know how to it!! Because, I just know what I know……the detail or reason, I really don’t know!!

Come to work, I am same as last time…when come to the things I am not sure, again, I will use my judgment to think and provide an answer. But, I discovered that with a lot of uncertainties, the things is really can’t works!! Because, what I have is “I not sure”, “I think”, “It should be”, “I thought”, and UNCERTAINTIES……. I am afraid to clarify the things that I don’t know, I not sure, and I doubt about from people!! Hahahahah……I just can’t stop myself to laugh myself!! I AM SICK OF IT……HELP!!

Okay, back to normal. With this, I found that I was lost in somewhere……But, I discover something which is very important in my life!! I told myself:

Anything I don’t know -- ASK

Anything that I am not sure -- ASK

Anything that I am in doubt -- ASK

What are the things that I want to complete by today, by this month, this quarter, this year, 5th year, 10th year, 20th years, and this life?!

You will see a brand new me again, with my wonderful gentle smile!! This is just a stage, just an obstacle which happened in my life to make me growth from every fell down.

11-06-09 9.42pm

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Today, a brand new day for me……I woke up in an early morning, and had a very nice breakfast without rushing!! A wonderful day for me, yes, I make my day…..just because I believe what I have believed!! A mission for myself, cheers my life up!!

12-06-09 9.27am

I Appreciate

2009-06-11T14:07:00.000+08:00

Today, seems like is my bad day!! Hmm, i think not my bad day, but the person who care me......

Yeah, the first person is my dar, as he alwasy laying on the bed until the very last minutes in the early morning. I just don't like he is always being like this, bcoz it alwasy make me mad...while i'm busy preparing stuff, i still have to worry about him, wake him up at time so that he won't be late!! But, i am the one always late, swt......you know, guy can get ready SUPER fast, 10minutes they can settle everything including brush teeth, bath, change attire, and setting their hair!! But for gals, haiz...no need to mention you already know what's happening, yeah, at least 30-40minutes for me to prepare and get ready!! That's why, i am mad......both of us is in rush, but i still have to take care of him!! We took the breakfast without talking. He made a cup of milo to me, and i mad on him again, he stared at me with lot of question mark...... But i still never being soft to him and i said: I can't finished the Milo, why you made for me?!!

He was very upset, and he drank 2 cup of Milo in front of me...... Why i'm being like that?!!! Maybe, i'm mad, beside that, I prefer to share with him with a cup of Milo instead of seperate it into two cup!!!

Another gentleman who care me, also, i think i have hurt him!! With lot of misunderstanding...... I think, i was wrong.... But i just can't explain it nicely to him!! Sorry..... When i am not in the mood, i can't talk nicely but with a lot of nonsense!!! yeah yeah...I am bad!!!

Something make me awake, i think, i should hit my head and make myself clear!! Nothing can be destroyed my optimism but myself!! I am the one who need to say SORRY!! Just want to let you guys know that, i am appreciate you~~ And i appreciate everything happens in my life too~~!! Cheerrssss!!

A very happy birthday to you (Wei Chen), wish u have a pleasant day!!

The second

2009-06-10T20:09:00.000+08:00

I am so exciting with my new blog space!! I don't know why, i just feels that i want to make my little space to become more meaningful~~ It looks poor since that is only a few blog entry here!! I must taking this opportunities (since i am free at home) to post another new blog!!

I just bought a 2G RAM for my Mr.Toshiba, it cost me RM85!! Now, my Mr.Toshiba have total 3G RAM, i believe "he" can perform even faster compare to last time, wahaha!! Actually before that, i was planning to buy an External hardisk which the storage around 250G-350G, so that i can backup my thing into the new hardisk from the previous hardisk. But the storage of the hardisk that i required is not available in the retail shop......sigh, i have to spend another time to look for it again!!

Now is 8.35pm, and i was thinking that whether want to go to my primary school to watch the Basketball competition!! As my younger brother will be part of the player in the competition, it's really make me feels like going...... The game will be started at 9.00pm, 25minutes left~~ Since i gone to KL for my studies until now, around 5 years plus...arggg...how many nice competition i had missed!! I think, i got no reason to ask myself not to go, bcoz, i really wish to go and be the best supporter for my brother's team!!

Time to go, dirty me...until now still haven bath!! Don't care...after the competition only go back and bath!!! Lalalalala~~~

The firSt

2009-06-10T09:49:00.000+08:00

Well, since long time ago, i already plan to have an English blog......I did tried to had one, but, i have been given up since long time ago, maybe i never appreciate the chances that i given myself!! Things will never become yours without putting any effort....... Me myself, I alwasy feels like want to improve my english, but, i always give myself a lot of excuse and refuse to do it!!

Yesterday, i created a new website for myself ...Again, this is a brand new space for me, for me to blog in English...yeah, maybe now i can only show you my broken english!! But, for time being, i believe my english level can be improved~~

Let's talk about others thing!! I don't know what to share, but, i'll try to share every little things happens on me to you~~ Maybe, start with my current job!! Alright, actually a lot of people do not know what i'm doing actually. My company, actually is an IT company, but most of my colleagues they are also from accounting background, and also they're ex-auditor~~ I'm here, work as a Consultant...sound professional, but, as you know...i am not professional at all, too friendly already la~!! Our company come out with an Audit software, so, i have been trained as an trainer to teach the auditors how to use our software!! Also, slowly, after pick up the skill, i have to do the the marketing to introduce this Audit software to others practitioner, in order to help them maximizing their value!!

I hope to optimize my value and gain more experience in this company!! Although my salary now is still very less, which only can cover my montly expenses, but, i believe i can get highest once i growth!! Just believe what i have believed......i alwasy told myself that "nothing in the world has ever been accomplished without PASSION"!! I don't like to compare my salary with others, i just want to compare the TODAY's ME with the YESTERDAY's ME!! Whether i have been growth from yesterday?! I know i wish to grow faster, but i am slow...... Passion, passIon, and PASSION, i know i really need it!! But sometime, it just doesn't appearred if you totally do not know what you really want, or you dunno what u believe whether is what you want~~!! We can't foresee anything in the future, but i believe we can create our future!!

Yes, just like me, i move my first step...create an English blog for myself!! Sound boring, but it means a lot for me!! Alright, stop babbling here...here i end!!